Dad Update

It is over 3 weeks now that Dad has been in Hospice. He had been fairly stable for the last week, but today I could see a noticable decline from yesterday. His Dr. told him this morning that she can see the signs that his body is beginning to shut down. I could see it just from looking in his eyes. He is so tired, worn down, and honestly ready to end his fight here, so he can begin a beautiful life in Heaven where the pain and suffering is over and he will feel wonderful forever. With as painful and difficult as it is for me to let him go, I know that it is what will be the best for him. The way he is living is no way to have to live. It is all in God's timing, so we are all doing everything we know to do to make this a comfortable time for him. Dad's best friend Jim flew in from Arizona and is here for the weekend. I am hoping that they will get some good "guy time" in this weekend and get a chance to really talk and spend time together. They have been friends for 25 years, Dad was Jim's flight instructor. I know Dad has been looking forward to his arrival. I am glad that he is here too, he is a good friend to our whole family.

I am not sure if I have ever been this tired in my life. It is amazing how much energy is consumed while grieving. But, I also see God's goodness in our sadness. God has blessed us with so much time to talk and share everything we have ever wanted to say to each other. What a blessing that nothing has gone unsaid, and we can tell one another how we feel about each other! That part has been awesome. And of course, Dad's heart being closer to God and having that peace in his heart is a priceless gift all in itself. In all things, there is a silver lining.

I have said it before and will say it again, I have the greatest husband in the world. He has kept this house running smoothly and has taken care of Aaron so much and taught him a lot of his school. Thank you Lloyd and Bev, for watching Aaron and for bringing delicious home cooked meals to our door! What a treat! Also to Pat, Granny and Sharon for keeping Aaron and keeping him fed. When I married the wonderful husband, I also got a group of fantastic in-laws to seal the deal!

The Lord is always good, even in times of sorrow. Please pray for Him to carry us all through the rest of this journey.